hey

looking around this place,
its so busy, so may people.
so much noise. the signs on the road directing all of the chaos.
i stand, i stand here, overwelled by all of the crazy things happenign around me.
the chour of horns honking, of bycicle bells ringing, the street musicans.
but through all of that chaos i hear your voice. in the mob of never ending people i see you.
you smile, i smile. we walk towrad one another, with open arms, but the second i expect to feel your warmth and protection, its not there. it was all a vision. i wish you were here with me,i wish that i could make that vision a reality. wish that we could be, but you dont want to. so im too shy to tell you otherwise. too shy to tell you that i care, that i will be there as a friend for you, and you fade into the crowd. walk away. i only know your name, but i dont say anything,too scared to speak, to move.

i wish we could be.

acceptance

its funny, people expect so much from teenagers. we are just kids, we are discovering ourselves. and we r trying different things, sometimes its stupid stuff, but, hey we are kids, so learn to freaking deal with us. adults tell so many teens that they screw ups, but dumb adults, think about ho that makes us feel!!!! NOBODY is prefect, we are all human. we all make mistakes, some bigger than others.
as teens we are decoding ourselves, making our own opinions, finding who we are and what we want to do with our lives. being a teenager is hell. there are lots of great times, but thats usually only when we r with other teens and or adults who understand us. we all hate it wen parents just yell and punish us before they even think about what being a teenager was like for them, they were teens once, they should hear us out and remember what a being a teenager is like before they make our lives a living hell.

Resilience

Your words of wisdom,
Of advice,
Always seem to put me in the right.
We both can’t take our own advice,
So we get it from one another.
We have sat,
When one of us wasn’t willing
To admit that something was wrong.
We sat,
Sometimes for a long time,
Until we worked it out,
Figured out what was wrong,
Encouraged each other that things will get better,
That the good times are coming.
Loss is terrible,
But you have conquered it,-
Shone strength,
And will to persevere.
To overcome the hard times,
And the pain we try to contain from the world.
You have shown me how to overcome the worst pain,
How to help a situation,
And when it is time,
To tell people certain things.
I respect you,
And you have shown resilience,
You have shown me resilience.
Thank you for that,
It is something that I will carry with me always,
Thank you.

By: Josette Kochendorfer
Livermore Valley Charter Preparatory High School


this poem is dedicated to, an about Aaron Stoien

nothing is actually you'res until you have lost it and it has been found again

SO TRUE
i recently just re-connected with my best friend from elementary school. we had lost connection in the 5th grade, and found each other over facebook. but i mean, i CAN NOT wait to see her. i have never stopped looking for her and even though i have made new friends, no one has ever taken her spot exactly; no one has been able to replace her.
all of the friends i have now, are wonderful people and i <3 all of you. you all know that, i know you all do :D
Molly i can not wait to see you, i'm SO exited to you!

P.S. Molly if wen i see u i start crying, don't think i'm dumb please , i haven't seen you in four years.

<3

Turn around

life has a interesting way of turning my life around. one moment i'm in a school i love and don't want to leave, because of all of my friends are here [LVCP], teachers that i love are here[LVCP] i will miss all of the jokes at PE, all the laughs in English; and probably become distant with friends that i cant go a day with out talking to, i don't want to have to leave this school, but it doesn't offer any arts, which saddens me. Art always has and always will be a massive part of my life, not being able to express myself through art, arts of any kind restricts me, and is stressful and frustrating.i am just sad that i have to leave the school i love and friends i love in order to get arts, it is freakin' ridiculous. my parents are pushing to go to Granada, i don't want to go, i wish i didn't have to leave this school [LVCP] in order to get arts. i wish there were art classes that you could actually get credits for at this school[LVCP], but that is yet to be seen, or even talked about.
when i first took interest in LVCP it was PROMISED that we would NOT be at the Portola site for more than a YEAR. but now, LVCP is to be at the Portola site until the first graduating class will be JUNIORS. the high school's first graduating class will spend 1/2 of their high school careers in an elementary school site.
I WISH THIS WILL INSPIRE THE REST OF THE GRADUATING CLASS OF 2014 TO TAKE A STAND AND MAKE A TURN AROUND IN LVCP

this is just the begin of what i should have stood up for earlier this year when i should have.

people in my life

this post is for all the people in my life that make my day, just a little brighter, and these are people who are my friends, and just the people who listen to me, give me advice, and just people who care :)

Aaron: Oh, where do i begin, you have always given me advice,and you have always been an amazing friend to me. :) i <3 u bro!
Stephanie: oh, i just love you. you make me crack up on a daily basis, and you're an amazing friend. don't ever change;unless it's for the better ;)
Jazmin: you are just amazing :) i don't know what i would do with out you, between you, Steph, Karen and Aaron, we are always laughing it seems, and it's amazing:D and you help me to get better at art, which is awesome, cuz that is what i want to major in , in collage <3 u
Karen: crazy Kare bear, you make me laugh, just being surrounded by you guys[You,Steph,Aaron,Jaz] like i said we r always rolling. <3 u :D
Alex M. : Alex, we have always been like brother sister, and you are just amazing, you have some crazy drawing skills too :D <3 u bro!
Mike D. : Mike, i don;t know what i would do without you. you give me advice, allow me to "steal" your jacket when i'm cold and you help me to get better at art, you teach me some skills and that really helps, thanks mike, and you help me to improve in baseball,which really helps i <3 u bro! :D
David: oh, David,well you always have some crazy saying, or dance move to make me smile. you give me advice and you are just crazy, don't ever change[except 4 the better] <3 u bro! :D

Mr.J: for just allowing me to come to you and just talk about stuff

there are a lot more people i should/could mention, but these are the first people that popped into my head , to all my friends, i<3 all of y'all and don't ever change;unless it's 4 the better

Reality

it hit me; the reality that there was no WAY i was ever going to get you back. i had told myself that i was over you, past you; but i wasn't.

but i am now. the reality that you want to be a complete asshole to me is just fine; i don't need you to tell me that i'm beautiful,smart,funny. i have my friends who truly love me and care for me; i don't need you,my friends aren't going anywhere, but you, you are. and i'm perfectly fine with that. i just wish you had had the respect to break up with me; and tell me the reasons why to my FACE, not over Facebook.
we were IMing yesterday, and you told me that i'm obsessive; and yes, i admit, it's one of my faults. i just want to be friends. and as a friend i am here if you ever need me for anything, i'm a friend here to help you, if you ever need it:)

i'm over you, period. please except this and respect this. thank you